http://lukaskye.buddyslim.com My trials, frustrations, and (hopefully) survival of a journey to health Wed, 30 Jul 2008 22:45:55 +0000 http://backend.userland.com/rss092 en i know that getting healthy, into shape, should be an important aspect of my life. i want it to be. i seriously have issues with my body, i know i am overweight, i am getting frustrated because it's hard to find clothes that fit me anymore, and the flab just ... http://lukaskye.buddyslim.com/2008/07/30/finding-it-difficult/ Unfourtunately, earlier than I wanted to be. I had spent my month in Greece, then was backpacking through Italy, actually on my way to Germany when I got some really bad news. My on-again-off-again boyfriend of seven years' mom just passed away. It was incredibly sudden and unexpected and all ... http://lukaskye.buddyslim.com/2008/07/22/im-baaaaaack/ i'm going to be a big fat pig forever and ever and there is nothing i can ever do about it, i just suck at life, and i hate all these people who it's so easy to be thin, and it pisses me off so much, when i have nothing ... http://lukaskye.buddyslim.com/2008/05/20/i-cant-do-this/ i am.. so estatic right now. for one day, one WHOLE ENTIRE DAY, i actually did good.. ALL DAY!!!! for those of you who didn't get to read my super-happy-vent on the forums, i will explain :) cuz... i'm long winded like that, lol. so, for the longest time, i've been struggling, as ... http://lukaskye.buddyslim.com/2008/05/12/oh-happy-day/ so i was talking to my coworker who has been to greece before; she was talking about running a lot b/c her and her hubby are going on vacation next month to a beach-y area, and she didn't want to look flabby next to all the beach bunnies, which... this ... http://lukaskye.buddyslim.com/2008/05/07/revelations-for-this-summer/ this has nothing to do with weight loss but i need to talk or blog or something and i feel safe here. my sister flipped her jeep over the side of a hill, and ended up in the hospital. it took about 1/2 an hour to cut her out of the ... http://lukaskye.buddyslim.com/2008/05/05/fuck/ so today officially kind of starts the new weight-loss week. last week, i didn't work out as much as i could have, athough i've been walking more. i tried counting calories, and i got to about midday or so before i gave up on it and started overreating :( so.. ... http://lukaskye.buddyslim.com/2008/05/04/the-next-week/ so i'm sitting here at work, crying and feeling sorry for myself. i feel like an idiot. i managed to keep temptation at bay for a couple hours, but, of  course, me being ME... i completely inhaled all these cookies, kisses, mini peanut butter cups... everything. part of me is angry ... http://lukaskye.buddyslim.com/2008/05/01/so-stupid/ i've been good all day, woke myself up to walk/jog, had a good breakfast, etc.. and now i'm at work and it's like, i've inhaled three cookies and a couple mini-kit-kats and mini-reeses-cups. yeah, i'm hungry, so that's part of it. i should prolly eat something healthy and fullfilling versus something ... http://lukaskye.buddyslim.com/2008/05/01/chocolate-just-sounds-oh-so-good/ today was very roller-coaster-ish. i didn't have to work, and i had planned with my mom to go shopping for my sister's 18th birthday tomorrow. we weren't planning on leaving until ten or eleven, so i was like "sweet, enough time to wake up early and workout" no. i slept in. i ... http://lukaskye.buddyslim.com/2008/04/29/the-ups-and-downs-of-tuesday/