chocolate just sounds oh-so-good
i’ve been good all day, woke myself up to walk/jog, had a good breakfast, etc.. and now i’m at work and it’s like, i’ve inhaled three cookies and a couple mini-kit-kats and mini-reeses-cups.
yeah, i’m hungry, so that’s part of it. i should prolly eat something healthy and fullfilling versus something junky.
but then.. idk. i think i’m a little stressed. last friday i blocked myself out of work, stayed home, took a break.. and apparently my boss got really pissed and was complaining about me to the other workers and stuff. which, i used to love my job, but it got all messed up when everybody started arguring and quitting and now it’s stress and drama, which i wasn’t even apart of but somehow i’m starting to be? anyway, so that happened, and i didn’t realize it would be a big deal i wasn’t there. i am technically a massage therapist, although i don’t have a lot of clientele, so i’m still on hourly, so i’m like, a receptionist too. which, is fine, but most people i think are starting to think of me as JUST a receptionist, and since we are low on staff, i’m here a LOT, doing reception-y stuff. and so.. they expect me to be here.
which, i understand when you are busy and the phones are ringing and the tanners are backed up and you are behind.. that sucks. i’m starting to feel guilty when i’m NOT at work, and THAT sucks, because it’s a job. my boss should take on the responsibility of hiring somebody else, and not leaving me to take up the slack. and it’s like, okay what if i came in that friday, but had a bunch of massage appointments? it would be the same thing (only worse b/c the extra laundry), they can’t count on me all the time. *sigh*
anyway. one of the girls was talking about it today, which, we get along fine, but she was telling me how our boss was complaining to her, then she went off kinda about how this is the only job i’ll have that will be that flexible and etc, and she was really kind of putting me in a bad mood. she hates this job more than i do, but the fact that she feels she has to tell me how the “real world is” or whatever.. like.. she was above me and knew more or something, and it really bothered me for some reason. does that make sense?
so.. i was stressed and annoyed about that, and i ate. grr.
now i feel a little sicky.
half of me wants to drink lots of water and do something to get my mind off this, and walking around a little helped me realize i don’t really need the junk.
the other half is screaming “CHOCOLATE CHOCOLATE!!” and wants to eat even though i know i’ll get even more sicky and i’ll hate myself and rue my blubberous body.
i normally would just eat more, but i’m going to try to be STRONG AND NOT EAT ANYMORE JUNK FOOD. lots of water, distractions, .. idk. i can do this.
right?
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Of course you can!! Distractions are the best.
Oh and…
Don’t worry about work. A job’s a job and that’s all there is to it. It doesn’t have to be your life, and you can always find something else. Don’t let the drama of work rule your emotions. No matter where you work, there will be drama of some kind or another, I promise you that!
Hope you have a better day. You’re awesome regardless of what your boss thinks!
Your boss just got a sneak peek at what you do and did not like it either. You coworker sounds like my used to office manager. The head puppeteer. Telling you about how working here is bad but nowhere else would understand about children sickness and so on. I did find somewhere that understood and had better perks! SO don’t let them guilt you into staying. The place will run without you.
Good job on stopping the bad eating and getting water instead!!